Back to my roots

I don’t need to apologize for being who I am. I’m not perfect and I have some serious flaws that I’m working on everyday. My writings are not for my readers to enjoy (I am glad that some of you do) but for a way for me to release my inner voice. It takes a lot for me to truly fall in love and I can honestly say I have loved many but I got my heart broken and bruised twice. The situations were so different, the men so different but the ending was exactly the same. Broke up in summer, my favorite time of year. Held on for six months afterwards only to be broken all over again.

It takes time to let go and thankfully both men gave me my time and now I’m ready. So now I get to truly focus on me and get back to my roots. I finally had my hair professionally colored.

It’s hard to see but it has blond and red highlights.

I’m understanding that I need myself to be happy. So after losing ten pounds from being ill (and heartbroken) I started yoga again. I want to be fit and nothing better than feeling good. Plus I want to get to the beach this summer and that means bikinis. That is motivation enough to get in gear and tone up this body of mine.

I am going to start seeds indoors. I love gardening. I love growing plants, so why not get back to my roots and grow some.

I have seeds from the Moon Flower my ex husband’s grandfather gave to us a few years ago. I am hoping they are still viable.

I also want to grow red Holly Hocks to go with the black ones I grew two years ago. Gardening is a wonderful hobby I enjoy, it is fairly inexpensive and I don’t have to leave my house to do it. Plus I’ll grow food for myself and my chickens. I’m so excited to garden again.

I want to have more time around a fire, around the house, enjoying some cold beers at home with friends and family. I live in such a great location to entertain and I’m going to start.

It may be the armpit of February but I see warmer, sunnier days on the horizon and I am so excited!